I’d like to say I’m not deteriorating or I’m slowly deteriorating, but like a fast acting drug it’s a rapid deterioration.
I feel like there’s something dead inside of me, like my heart is a carcass of some spirit animal that couldn’t take it anymore.
I’m lost. I can’t focus enough to do my first homework assignment. I wish I could just sleep all day every day for the rest of my life to be quite honest. I used to be able to persevere, but I feel like this cats 9th life has just been used up. Now I’m just a bitter old woman no one will want to be around.
On the bright side my doctor is calling me in a perception for xanax. Only 10 pills but maybe they’ll help keep me from spazzing which I’ve been doing on a nightly basis since the apocalypse.