I take these detox baths with hydrogen peroxide and epsom salts and sweat out toxins. My knees are bad so my dad always cleans the tub out for me so I can take the occasional detox bath. I wish I could take them everyday but it’d not be so good for me. But that feeling after of no pain and calmness is the best. I miss it right now while I lay down with a headache and bad muscle aches. I do have post lyme syndrome but I sometimes get paranoid my muscle pain is attributed to something extra. I have so many health problems it’s miserable. And I’m only 26. I hope I last into my 90s.
I went out with a friend today to dinner which I regret paying for but I owed her a dinner, then we bummed about for a bit and LAUGHED. It really is medicine, but after she left and the night wore on I got depressed again. Tomorrow all the schools are closed but I don’t have any classes. Just tutoring in the afternoon. Hopefully I get paid to make up the money I spent on recreation this week. I can’t spend anymore. Need to save.
I took the most luxurious shower tonight. The lady I’m dog sitting for has only the finest grooming products from bar soap and shampoo to body polish and ph balancing toner. I put some music on and danced a little too. I wish there was reason to take another shower NOW so I could relax.
Apparently I’m the spitting image of Lena Dunham so I started watching Girls and I’m enjoying it.
I wish this depression would eff off. I’m tired of it.