It’s that lingering Lyme disease discomfort that’s worse than normal. I’m also uneasy from the amount of attention I’ve been getting the past few days.
I’m Facebook friends with this tight knit group of girls from stats class now and aside from all the lighthearted group chat on Facebook today, YESTERDAY this one girl Maria wanted me to call her to talk about our paper (individual papers, one assignment). I totally groaned.
But I called her and we talked shop and it eventually came up that I’m bipolar and I told her a little about it and she asked some questions and told me a little about her own struggles and even though I was literally exhausted an hour and some minutes later getting off the phone with her I felt really good making a new friend.
Like all my fears about friends though I get scared making them because I’m afraid to lose them once that honeymoon period is over. Like I’ll be a huge disappointment.
Aside from all that, tomorrow is going to be really fun. I’m going to a 1 year old’s birthday party and that’s my jam. I’m so comfortable around little kids, particularly the ones that I consider family that I met when I first just used to babysit them (now I visit every week just to hang out with ma’ pa’ and the kids). After I have to go study with the girls from class, so hopefully I won’t look like a trainwreck after running around in a jungle gym for three hours.
And Misericordia never called me back, so no Direct Service Professional job…but I do have a promising opportunity at a nursing home. I just need to tweak my resume.