I am all over the GD place right now. I woke up this morning wanting to go back to sleep, but I just couldn’t. I was too restless.
I did my damndest not to eat the leftover homemade enchiladas. I mean I literally took the container in my hands, tried to open it, had trouble then thought “IT’S A SIGN FROM GOD TO REMEMBER MY DIET” (Of which I lost another 2 lbs this week so far).
After finishing some homework early in the day and confident for school tonight I’m totally elated I have free time to watch Disc 2 of Season 4 of Sailor Moon.
And then after a disc I decide IT’S TIME TO DO THINGS! And I remember “OH THERE’S A NOVEL I WANTED TO WRITE” and fail to get more than a few sentences out. So then I clean house. So then after that I chomp down on some turkey breast and celebrate the low calories. And after THAT I get the guts to leave the house, go to the local craft store and find SOMETHING to do. I want to learn to cross stitch, but all the patterns they have at the store are either too lame or too hard. So I look at the yarn and decide to pick up knitting again. I want to make a sailor moon scarf for myself, but that’ll take a lot of time because I need to know how to knit a bow, so I decide to knit my own Darien a scarf for when he travels cross country this winter. Just…so many things…and after a while my fingers hurt and I’m done with THAT too.
And now in about a half hour I need to go to school. I really hate the hour drive to the satellite campus. I get nervous driving these days. That and I’d just rather let the creative juices flow, continue jumping around from thing to thing, actually try drawing in the sketch book instead of putting myself down that I won’t be able to draw anything good. I need to stop being such a stiff and just go with something. I’m definitely down now.